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Saturday, September 23, 2006
DECADENT
they're always on top of fashion,
thinking they're the best creation.
they feign God,
but they forgot they too will rot.
they roam the streets at night,
breaking the rules, thinking it's "might".
they could, shall and will be defiant,
but they are ever reliant.
they're all obfuscated,
all thrown into the fog society created.
they end up being indie,
but could never grow up, stuck at kiddy.
they indulge in hedonism.
relativism and materialism,
that's their religion.
besides crapping, they're just silent.
they couldn't live without a "dear"
but they treat each other like gear.
always showing them off to others,
but never putting enough for their partner.
they throw each other away,
leaving no memories to stay.
all that they've done,
is all about "fun".
they've no feelings.
they care only bout their living.
money, pretty and hip,
it's smeared all over their lip.
they look into the mirror,
and see their face, like flowery petals.
are they really beautiful?
no, their hearts are never full.
they never understand what's beauty.
they think it's something pretty.
they think it's all about the outside,
but the truth is, it lies inside.
they judge the others,
based on what they see in the mirrors.
they are the bencemark.
how foolish, how they always bark.
oh decadent, decadent,
turn thy ways to heaven.
please stop walking towards the nether,
WAKE UP, before the next, you enter.
---
not sure if you guys would understand, but it's my thoughts about... i'll let you guess. those who could guess correctly. i'll give you a prize? (kidding)
love,
~ emma
forget me not.
3:13 PM
Thursday, September 21, 2006
hey people,
i guess it'd be good posing this. looking at victor's post. or at least the reminiscence of another post, i could see how words that actually don't really matter to you, words that are discreetly hurting people and spoiling relationships, sometimes come out with little thought placed in it. there's one solution for this. before you say or do something. think about the other person. think about how you'd feel if you were him or her. putting yourself in other's shoes. that's the sincerest form of empathy, of understanding, and probably the most selfless way of friendship.
little things come in a big way. sometimes you don't realise it, thinking that it is really insignificant and irrelevant to your current situation. but no. remember, most things occur in present perfect tense. meaning that a certain thing you have done many years ago, the impact, repurcussion or effect might still be well kept until today. perhaps it was obloquy, perhaps it was contempt or something positive. but always remember that try to do things for others. i only realised the rationale of this really recently. if you could live by helping others live, you'll find more meaning in life, and more meaning to continue this long journey ahead that would eventually end quite soon.. have to start drilling my soul to put myself in other's emotions, psyche, and minds. not that i want to control their minds or something, but on the other hand, to try to understand them more and make them less obscure to me. i'm sure life would be much more opalescent in this way.
i guess only time would reveal the truth and the answers.
love,
~ emma
forget me not.
11:29 PM
Hello people!
i actually blogging! mhmm, i can't really believe it myself. but oh wells, i guess the reality is more bizarre that the myth. haha, i thought i told myself i wasn't going to write until after the exams. much has happened during these few days. A LOT is fact.
Around the world, there was the Iranian nuclear issue, the Pope enraging the Muslim world, there was also the death of Steve Irwin, favourite crocodile hunter in the world. Basically, just somuch has happened since i took a break.
In the country, there was the whole IMF thing, cases of teachers molesting students, what else? Singapore Idol? i guess it's just not the hulabaloo it was.
In my community, Zheng Ning's birthday, Yanlin's birthday, Jingyi/Vivien's birthday this Sunday. Godma fell ill. Met new friends too, Joey and Lara. let's see if i missed out anything... i guess that's about it?
In me, turned very realistic suddenly, hungry (not the physical one) and somehow, very overwrought. mhmm, i guess it's all the pre-exam woes. I caught the flu buggy too..
Today, is a okay day. not because it was only a mildly bad hair day, but because things went well, things went bad too.
I woke up at 5 plus this morning. at about 5.30. i woke up thrice consecutively over three minutes, time passed quite slowly then. then i crawled out of bed and almost went to get prepared. but instead, i went to the sofa and fell asleep. woke up 15 minutes later and eventually went to brush my teeth. changed, got outta home.
Went on the bus, sat down on the seat, empty mind, tired body. reached the stop, got out of bus, waited for 852. got on 852, took out english spelling list and starting studying really hard for it. apparently till i eventually slept! bleargh. woke up and strutted my way back to class. did more studying in class, and then moved on to the social studies essay i've not done. soon was flag-raising, but i managed to get the essay ready though. nothing much happened later until... first period was maths, followed by... umm, social studies, which i continued studying english spelling and then english! we're not tested on spelling though. it's been postponed to next week. then recess! nick helped me put the plates. Thanks! nothing else really happened. then physics! we went through a water waves exercise, which i did really badly in. really really badly. i got 7 out of 8 wrong! >< haha. i guess i'm still not that proficient as physics yet. Ms. Chien didn't come today (again?) then a relief teacher came to take over. somehow the relief teacher looks like she was from SCGS. she really doesn't look twenty. look so pinch-able, if you get what i mean. then there were weird guys who were playing the high-pitched handphone thing in class. Come on, she's only slightly over twenty, she could hear it. besides, do they actually ask themselves why they were actually doing that? why? why? why? always ask youself why. why you're doing this, doing that. why you're in this dimension. ask why you're here. your purpose will eventually stem from there. your purpose comes from you exploring yourself, searching your within.
ask yourself questions you've never encountered. dare challenge the difficult, things are only difficult because you dare not. thanks Mr. Tieu for that inspiration. then after that was chinese double period. i did something really wrong though --- i was doing math during her class. sorry... really gotta do something about chinese! GAMBATE.
after "lunch" was the really looong chemistry period. was still doing math then. oh, before i forget, i want to bring up something. compromises and giving in. they ensure a good relationship. trust too, is rather mandatory. make sure it's in you and your connections. love could eventually flow. love keeps the world spinning, love keeps everyone going.
after that, i waited for Godpa to come. i realised something. when you're lonesome and need someone close to you. it sometimes do not matter if they are actually close to you. when you need that presence of a "someone else near" to make sure you're not actually alone, you go for the nearest, most convenient answer. not sure if this happens to everyone. though.
Godpa came, and we went to the good ole' Bukit Timah Food Centre for dinner. Had economical rice and fishball soup AND soya bean curd. thumbs up for the rice, double thumbs up for the soya bean curd. the fishball soup was just okay, the fishballs were almost overcooked. the soya bean is really really good. when it's hot, it actually melts, literally, in your mouth! that feeling is really... oooh... haha.
need to exercise! getting fat! getting flabby. oh! still ill. bleah.
shall stop here now. gotta go sleep soon.
not sure what are the plans for tmr.. but i still anticipate it!
with lotsa love,
~ emma
forget me not.
10:28 PM
TIME
Time changes everything,
it changes the way you think,
it alters your pursuit in life.
Changes the dance, from waltz to jive.
In the blink of an eye,
everything's passed, without a "why".
Now, chase those fond memories,
before they cease to exist.
Time heals.
Relationships sweeten, it will.
The pain and suffering,
might soon not be anything.
Wounds recover,
and the aching really isn't forever.
But remember to let it breathe,
else any cure would be a myth.
Time matures.
Sometimes it's even a measure,
for how wise you are,
is your journey enough thus far.
As you walk through the hills and valleys,
ever falling till you hoped for fairies.
You learn from every stumble,
realising you get nothing from grumble.
Time,
everyone tries to make it rhyme.
But remember, it's two sides, like a dime,
And, never make it a mime.
---
For Victor, my frank friend who never ceases to give me surprises and also disappointment. You are one of the reasons i'm me today! Thanks (:
love,
~ emma
forget me not.
9:50 PM
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Hello people!
i'm finally blogging! haha, finally... umm, today there was AEP workshop! we managed to live through it! or rather, we managed to actually complete a trailer in one day! just one day. now that's quite a feat to accomplish. met new friends! belinda from njc, also from canoeing! and she somehow reminds me of yanlin, but she always smiles! petit cutie, very lovable. then there's kai ying from nyjc. she's the camera-woman for the day. hardworking =P and, desiree! from CHIJ toa payoh, she acted as the sought-for-lady in the trailer. nicholas! from victoria school. one nice lad, small eyes, really tall, in scouts! haha, he's kinda fun to be around with.
thanks so much people! you made my day (:
so what happened in detail today was that there was a combined workshop held for aep students in singapore. aep students in sec 3 and JC 1. i reached late today! =S
at first we sat down together, and silence reeked the entire atmosphere.. well, not that dramatic, cause there were other groups all around. i'm exaggerating >< but later the ideas started to come in. first we had an idea about.. umm, let me try to think... oh, the first idea was about this latecomer thing. oh, we picked "action" as our genre. well, we didn't pick it. but we took that lot. the title was "The Teenager". our second idea was about some superhero apprentice that eventually became a larger-than-life superhero! the third was regarding bullying in school. our idea was a little mix of the second and third. it was about this nerdy guy. he admired this girl in school. and one day a bully came along and bullied the girl. the nerd was really angry and went to confront the bully but lost. then somehow he manages to get a secret kungfu manual thing. he trained and eventually turned into some superhero of sorts. yupp. that's the gist of it. the trailer's really cool, although it's really funny and quite full of flaws here and there...
but i would like to really thank you guys for all the effort put in! THANKS!
oooh, i would like to see what's an agrometer!
AND AND, one last thing. i HIGHLY recommend "Tuesdays With Morrie" don't hesitate to borrow it from libraries. it should be there. CAL Number: 378.12092 ALB. it's really good. shall elaborate next time.
see ya soon!
Love,
~emma
forget me not.
10:13 PM