hey people,
my "u" on the keyboard is still being naughty, so yo might see many missing "u"s today as i type faster. look the naughty is a great example.
drumming course today was a little harder, had a lil difficulty catching p, but with more practice, i progressed slowly and was finally able to play the 8-beat rock groove. i think drumming is good, helps yo train your coordination and left-right brain synchronization, might make yo smarter too! haha. after drums today, i stayed in the library to read some magazines and subsequently fell asleep, to the extent that i have no idea what was going on around me. even when dao yuan came beside me to do his homework, i was oblivious! of course, until i woke up. later, i went to meet Mrs. Sim for hrp. we discussed hrp proper till about 4 plus, then we chatted a bit. it's really fun and insightful, because yo don't usually get chances like these. the content is private and confidential, muahaha. much gratitude to her for spending her part of her afternoon with me :-)
after that, i went home, it started drizzling on the bus while i was travelling back. but as usual, i fell asleep along the way, hmpf, was supposed to read books though. lazy lazy me. mhmm, it seems like i have already entered holiday mood, and that's not good at all, i have to psycho myself to do more work. there are so much to do, and i have yet to complete any, have to speed up the pace already.
for today, i would actually like to discuss the contradiction of action. before talking about it, one has to really define what is being selfless. what is being selfless really? does it mean to show a total lack of concern to yourself and place others higher up the priority list or does it just mean to give whatever yo can without compromising yourself too greatly? i'm not very sure myself what is the "correct" definition, but i do believe that true selflessness is about realising that others are more important than you, and believing in the notion that your actions can eventually make a difference in a way or another. although i would admit that this seems impossible (i couldn't do it too), but there are life examples. mother theresa is one rare gem that display this quality. selfishness is a rampant disease. at least it's the way i view it to be. selfishness causes people to turn away and become pessimists, even for the idealists. this is due to the fact that due to the presence of such individuals, those who really want to pursue the greater good would meet a lot of obstruction along the way. selfishness is a tripping stone to kindness. and i believe that it would generate a chain effect that turns everyone into apathetic individuals. there's only one way to stop this from worsening, that is to stay firm to yor own belief. i'm not sure if i'm correct, but no one would want to do bad purposely, most at least. so, that means that there is s possibility of causing a positive change in each person, because he/she is born with a potential of doing both good and bad, and so, positive influence would probably make him a better person as well. although each of us might seem to be a negligible existence of this world. about 1 in 6.6 billion? in maths, that fraction could be classified to be negligible in certain cases. however, it's also this almost negligible existence that could caus great impact on the 6.6 billion people. i believe that purpose spreads. every action that a person does has a certain purpose, and this purpose could either inspire or delude others. such is the power of choice, to seek the truth or delusion. now what is truth some would ask. i have no idea myself. but i guess one day, when we leave this world and stand before the true judge, then we would finally understand.
well, every change needs an action, each initial action needs a person. why not be you? you can make a difference. just believe, and accomplish it.
hope this post generate new ideas and questions, i like to keep questions open-ended :-D hope i'll be able to touch on this again
God bless!
emma