myosotis

Monday, March 05, 2007

hey people,

won't be blogging long today cause of a serious lack of time. pardon me.

DRUMMING is FUN! i enjoyed my whole day today. WHOLE. but i find it kinda hard to keep up though, cause i don't have any musical background anf stuff, so the beats and striking often go haywire. but still, drumming is fun. after school, i stayed back to complete chinese compo, was so tired that i slept while doing it.. after that i rushed to macritchie after extending the datelines of some books.

i was a little late. was on the same bus as shuren and mervyn. training today was okay, but i've got this feeling that i shrunk by a least a few inches. haha

there're so many things i want to talk about today... about existence, about God, about love and relationship, about truthfullness and being you at your purest state. but i guess i might not have the time to actually go throught every single one of them.

well, let's start with an easier topic in the list (all of them are kinda... ummm... intermediate) let's talk about the contradictions and confusions of love and relationship in general. when it comes to love (not limited to BGR), it can really give a huge dilemmas sometimes, especially when it comes to caring about a certain person. some people say that love is about letting go, letting the person to be free. however, on the other hand, can you imagine a relationship where no one actually, well, cares? i can't. of course, it is an undeniable truth that these are rather extremist views and that different situations call for different responses. but the big problem that's always stuck in my mind is: when, how and sometimes why. when should you give concern to someone. because, your concern might be misinterpreted by him/her and she/he might find you to be an irksome, irritating bugger. the when factor is really the key sometimes as people in different moods and emotions will translate care in different ways. well, i guess everyone knows that, and so i guess i won't talk about it. well, i guess next time when you're angry or plainly having a really bad day, do try to refrain from allowing your emotions take the better of you, and allow it to take full control. when that happens, you'll get yourself stuck deep down in a pot of really hot soup, and i guess you would not want that. always remember, one wrong move would lead to a unprecedented effect. so do always try to make sure that yor choices are not made on impulse and to think compassionately and considerately. notice i did not use logically as i feel most people think with their minds but almost never with their hearts. what matters to them is their own welfare and their own business. hence, do try to pt yourselves in other's shoes sometimes, and try to empathise with them their suffering and needs. when yo can accomplish that feat, you'll become a great friend, because you wouldn't want to cause harm to the people arond you. i guess there's a rule of thumb, however you want others to treat you, treat them in the same way. through experience, i found out that persistence and perserverance on yor part, with the power of God, has the power to change how others feel and react towards you. it's never too late to try! i do hope mine is not an excluded case! haha.

oh no, just by talking about "when", i have already deviated so much :-( okay, back to my second point - how? due to the fact that technology has enabled us to have an intricate system of communication and advanced communication devices, one could be shrouded in confusion when it comes to which medium to use. sms, calling, email, looking for the person face-to-face, video call, etc. there are so many modes now. well, i guess the most sincerest and loving form of communication should be less than an arm's length, meaning that i feel close contact concern is something that would be more easily accepted and appreciated, but of course, it is also much harder to accomplish. of course, the emotions of the receiver of your kindness would be a large factor as well, but do always try to be forgiving and understanding that no one is perfect, including you and i. remember that it might just be a bad day for him/her, or just that someone else really disappointed or angered him/her. so try to be forgiving, even when they might be unreasonable. well, just try yor very very best, because i do understand that it is really hard sometimes, even for myself.

and now, to my last point, why. sometimes, although it seems weird, it's good to rationalise your care for someone. actually, seriously speaking, i have yet to understand this at all. so.. does anyone like to comment on the "why" of care. haha, sounds weird.. mhmm, maybe my last point is invalid afterall, cause as they say, "love is blind", and i fully agree. i guess love calls for no rationale and reason.

mhmm, i know my coverage is not very complete, and that it's definitely not perfect and it's just my personal point of view, but i do hope it might help a little.

sigh, at the end of the day, i still think i'm unable to grasp it still. well, i guess i forgot to mention something really important, actions speak louder than words. use your actions to justify your concern. blank talk is really, just empty and dry by itself.

well, seems like i have much to do as well :-) will try to discuss the other topics next time! see you!

withlove,
emma

P.S. forgive me for some words cause my "u" isn't working properly, have to smack it really hard

forget me not. 10:51 PM