hey blog,
i'm feeling quite gloomy right now, so i don't really feel like
remembering the things i've done today, feeling quite tired and
frustrated. frustration due to my lack of inspiration for a new song.
sigh~ things like these used to come really easily, but the tap was
shut off, and somehow nothing comes to me anymore.. but i believe that
tomorrow might be a better day, and i'm looking forward to it. hmmm,
yanlin's still ill, so i'm kinda worried. davin and alfred's going to
simlim square tomorrow, not sure whether i should go or stay at home..
sigh~ i'm becoming more fickle-minded, everything's getting so cloudy
up there inside the head. but i guess it will all be over soon. i guess
no one actually really understands the stuff i'm feeling right now, the
confusion and tire of everything. which is really bad, speaking in the
political correct sense.
but oh well, i guess there will be times when you feel like this, down
and all alone. i remember there was this time my friend used a phrase
for her MSN nick. it was, " alone in the crowds" or something like
that. i feel that very often. feel like i'm the only one standing down
there although there are so many people right beside me, around me.
i think this post is really pessimistic, hope you won't be infected by
this contagious virus of gloominess.
it's 12 sharp right now, if you dont take into account the seconds.
okay, it's 12.05 now.
time is slowly ticking away
right before your eyes
nothing seems to go in your way
everything as cold as ice
staring at the keyboard
wondering how you are
cooped inside an empty ward
with no chocolate bar
come on now
it is time to go
time to take an ending bow
but you just say no
why won't you leave
cause i want to stay
but adam, go and find your eve
i'm going my way
how do i end this
i really don't know how
cutting my wrist?
nah, just let out a growl
just an awfully random random dumb poem.. dadada.
umm, anyway, i really hope tomorrow will be a much better day. and God
bless dearies.
love,
~emma
