oh no... it is so late already. must try to squeeze everything together. let me see what happened today... today morning was a bad start for a normal day. i woke up late! very late. must wake up early next time. but it was really a bad start to wake up late. i was rushing so many things happened. i took the wrong bus to training! it was supposed to be 857 but i took 851! saw the number wrongly when i entered the bus. the worst thing is that i did not find out until it went pass the turn at green castle. i am really slow... okay, so after that i took 851 all the way to little india and changed bus to 67. when i reached kallang, i was almost 40 minutes late. saddening... then i had stomachache!!! such a bad day... so after that, i told them i could not train partly because of my stomach problem and i had to leave early for orientation meeting. so at first i went to the pontoon to see hwa chong people paddle but i saw U-glen ( not sure is the name is spelled correctly ) and we started talking. he was supposed to be the backman for a dragonboat with crescent girls students. helping out one of his teachers. but then, backman is not the correct term. i forgot the correct term... so afterwards he got to go and i also left for school to meet jiawei. cause i told him i had nothing to do, so i asked him to come earlier to keep me company. so selfish. but he owes me trainings! for those who do not know, jiawei is actually my K2 partner. and recently he had to skip training cause of orientation and illness. hmpf... so before he came i read magazines. two to be exact. national geographic and runners world magazine. NG talked about longevity. i really do not understand human's rationale of wanting to live longer. humans just like to play God. but there is only one true God. so please humans! stop playing this dumb game. our lives are in God's hands. we are given freewill but please, i urge you not to abuse it. runners world magazine is my favourite magazine currently. two words "IT ROCKS!" i love it. maybe i will be registering for it. so soon after jiawei came. not that soon but also not a very long time, taking into conisderation that time just flew past really quickly while in the library. maybe it was because of the reading. so we settled down and he started doing his stuff. later augustine came. and we saw boey too. later boey left first to look for joseph tan. jiawei, augustine and me stayed in the library until about twelve twenty something ( or earlier ) and then proceeded to the area outside the staffroom. we initially wanted to eat lunch first. but it was too late. so jiacheng came up and told us that the meeting have been shifted to 1A classroom. i shan't do into the details for meeting. i was too hungry and too tired to have paid full attention anyway. and that is very very wrong... so after meeting was mass KAP mac donalds session. yuan chang, alfred, jiawei, boey, wei leong, boey and some people including me went there. boey treated me to lunch. THANKS a million for that! so after eating we joined alfred's table. 'cause at first there was only one table but it was too squeezy. so boey and i went to another table. so when we joined back, they were talking about scandals and stuff. and yuan chang was the star of the show. not that he has a lot, but he knows a lot. but i thought it was realy wrong when he said that he would only keep secrets when others tell him to promise them. i mean, others share their secrets with you because they trust you and because you are a good friend, perhaps even a soulmate. so please, secrets are only supposed to be known to a few. or what is the point of it in the first place. so after that we went to video ezy. at first we thought that we could bring our bags in now that they have installed the security system. so when we were walking in, the gentleman at the counter told us, "No bags in this premises". So i was thinking, what are the sensors for??? after looking through the titles,we went home individually. when i was walking on the overhead bridge, i saw 852 coming and ran for it, isolating myself from jiawei, augustine and boey... the bus was real hot today. but i slept soundly because i was really very tired. when i reached the interchange i saw er ge there. he fell sick. quite bad. so he went straight to the doctor's but it wasn't open at that time. so in the end he came back up first. nothing significant happened after that until i went back to my comp and saw that a few people had messaged me when i was away. clarissa's birthday is coming soon. cannot publicise. confused as i do not know what to get for her or should i even get something for her. hmm, never mind, i hope inspiration will look for me. cause i really cannot think of anything to give to her. God! give me grace to read her mind somehow! anyway, the following lines have nothing to do with anyone. it is just a general fact. i found out that maybe i couldn't find the right one for me... it is always when i fall for someone, i find out how good she really is. and then i look at myself, saying, " she deserves someone better " and i would just start to think that i will waste her time... i do not know if it is true or not. but that is what i feel... anyway, if you have seen my nick name for today, it has an encoded message. the hint i am going to tell you is that it has something to do with backmasking. but of course, it does not contain any weird satanic messages. how i wish i could gaze up in the stars, and see the brightest one, telling her that " wee vol ia " but it is all just a dream... all just a dream... these few days i encountered rings. it gave me inspiration to share something with you guys. think of rings as a responsibility. be it family, relationships, religion, ecetera. most of the time, it is so easy to accept but it is so hard to give it up. just like the way rings are easy to wear but it gets stuck easily while you are trying to get it out... simple but yet deep. so always remember, whenever you want to wear a ring, think about the consequences before you act. i might be really pretty, but make sure it does not destroy you. responsibilities can make you stronger but could also pound you into dust. so always remember to take care of yourself and the people around you, making sure they are always perfectly alright...

with love,
~matt