hey people, I know its been a long long time since i have posted. really sorry. must blame myself for my laziness. yup, i decided to change my skin. cause i felt i wasn't very lonely on this world after all. BUT i feel that i am a lonely artist. those two are BIG different stuff. anyway, much had happened throughout my absence. lets see.. the last time i posted was October. but then i was using the alias lonesome smiles. its time for me to change. and things around me have to too. it is inevitable, cold but yet also a form of sacrament. a way of giving
new life. advent is coming soon. and so it Christmas. and so is the new year. everything is happening too quickly. everything is flying me when i am in total oblivion. everyone is walking by me so quickly. as if the end of days were coming in a split second's time. the kingdom is at hand. but i don't see how we are going to join Jesus in heaven by doing stuff like rushing work and daily tasks. lay faithful nowadays do not even have time to spend with God. wait... that statement is totally false. when you want to spend time with someone, you definitely could. time is in your hands, although i goes just like that, you still have the right to choose what you want to use time really for. time is a constraint BUT it also acts like a gauge to see how much you are willing to sacrifice for someone you love. love no matter whether it is
friendship, boy-girl relationships, marriages, kids or God. so how much time do you spend with the people you think you love most? someday, when your heart is at ease and you might want to reflect on your relationships with your loved ones. try comparing the amount of time spent with your parents compared to time spent doing school related activities or going out with friends. shockingly, you might find out that the ratio is 2 or 3 is to 1 ( 2:1 or 3:1 ). that is what happened to me. now i really feel bad. cause the people that love me most in this world are the people that i neglect and take for granted most. i urge everyone to spend time more with your family. although you might think that friends might be more important at this age. please think again. your family are your roots, your beginning and end of life. you can escape but you can never ever deny. someday when you need someone to be beside you. perhaps you will know the feeling. perhaps time will tell i guess. this few weeks we had bloc outing. many many times. and i
really love and treasure the togetherness all of us share when we are together. one big family. although we might not be directly blood related. our bonds are real strong. but we still lack one crucial item. TRUST. few people really trust in the secrets society. i really trust them. but sometimes when they ask me questions, i might not be able to tell them right answers because i do not even have an answer. fiddle-minded, confused, whatever you call it. it just makes me distant to them. life can be simple BUT yet also so complicating. i will stop here for now. got to go sleep.
REMEMBER...
- spend more time with family
- trust your friends more
- pray for more faith, love and hope
with love
~matt
