hello evryone,
i have quite a lot of things to say today as i experienced much today. called clarissa and we had a long long, nice chat on the phone. she was having a lot of stress due to the commitments she is having. jia you! u can do it.
firstly, i wud like to say that pressure can do two things, crush you down or push you forward. you have to learn how to control it to let do what you want. i noe that sumtimes it goes out of hand, but never always use the excuse that because you are human you can keep committing the same mistakes over and over again. you shud always learn from your mistakes and stand up from the fall. struggles are needed in life. without struggles, life wud never go on. trust me.
anger management is very important. venting your anger is necessary and essential. but always remember these few points. vent your anger on something suitable and not someone. something suitable... what do i mean?
for example, if you really need to hit sumthing, dont punch the wall! maybe you can use the bed for an alternative. if you want to scream, dont scream in front of others. find somewhere quiet where you can let everything out.

and most importantly, pressure control is not easy, it has to be practised to be mastered. i havent master it myself yet. always remember, pressure control isn't about keeping evrything inside. its not! it is about knowing when, where and how to vent your anger. this is very important due to the fact that if you do not do it correctly, you might hurt others either physically or emotionally.

^ its all about knowing when to let out...
and remember, never escape. if you escape you will end up nowhere. always confront your pressure, even if it is almost impossible. its time that you give yourself trust. hope that these words could help you in any way.

your someone that is always there for you,
~matthew