i got a feeling that my heart is turning harder, and that i am not as
good as before anymore...
why is there such a feeling?
is it really true?
these days, i wud be using a different persona when i meet people, a
ugly persona that covers my true self.
i am struggling, in the midst of knowing which is the true me!
so confused.
i hope my good side can win over the bad...
the shadows are engulfing me...
eating me up little by little, until i die off and it takes over.
where is the gentle matthew that i used to know?
now theres only an ungrateful, snobbish, selfing, insensitive piece of
shit!
people around me! i appeal u guys to help me!
or i might lose my good side forever. :,(
need to control..
my bad side is so wicked, so stupid and so sadistic, why is this so?
cant it be a little bit better?
God help me!
i wanna be softer, a better person.
help.... says mr. good lonely while mr. bad lonely is cheering at the
side.
^ since when evil wins good?